I have no idea what is happening to me. In school, i played and i studied but, i
will still feel pressure/tension in the atmosphere. Last 2 weeks, so many thoughts are going through my mind. Stupid and werid thoughts.

Listing some were,
Tot 1: you know you can smoke so why not
Tot 2: See your surrounding, why are u trap down?
Tot 3: what is the point of waking up early to get to school
Tot 4: Give up everything - SA, literally everything tat i hold dearly to.

However, this thoughts were like tere everytime i walk alone to school. Did i entertain it? Sort of, i were thinking of the consequences and somehow i left it hanging in my head.

Decemeber is coming, i have so much things i want to do during decemeber which means a big hole in my pocket. But, thinking of what is coming ahead. I have no idea how. Even if i can't drive, i would want to get my holga camera this decemeber or a good quality camera.

Some picture took